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  • 8-3-2026

    August is my birthday month, and I take it very seriously. It also kicks off a busy season of celebrations in my immediate family, with my husband and children having birthdays in September, November, December, and January. And that’s not even counting the rest of the fall/winter festivities!

    To mark the occasion, Seven Oars is on sale for just $1.99 for a limited time! Get your (electronic) copy while the deal lasts. It’s Book 3 in the Rix Universe series, and an epic adventure if I do say so myself. There are some dark twists and turns to surprise you, and the hero is not what you’d call a gallant soul. In the end, all is well. Seven Oars floats on.

    If you’ve followed the journey and wondered, like Rosamma, what happened to certain others left behind–well, something did. Not everyone is doomed. Luck always plays a role. Redemption exists for those who earn it.


    Chapter 1 (Rix Universe Book 4)

    “Do you want him or not?” The assignment officer had exhausted his unimpressive reserve of patience and leveled an exasperated glare at Callisto.

    Keenly aware of the long line of labor brokers, contract agents, and other assorted recruiters behind her, she chewed her lip. “Sure. I’ll take him.”

    “Confirmed.” The officer scanned the agreement in, making her choice permanent. “He’s all decked under the expedited allocation protocol. Proceed to dispatch.”

    Following the directions on the spasmodically flashing data banner, Callisto made her way to a large waiting area of the high-throughput processing center. 

    She’d managed to snatch a hire. She smiled brightly at Victor, who stood silently beside her, determined to enjoy the victory despite lingering doubts. Instead of smiling back, Victor gave her a sharp look and said nothing.

    In a short time, an out-processing coordinator appeared. How anyone could find anybody specific in this pandemonium of layered decks and queue rails remained a mystery to Callisto, yet here he was.

    Alone.

    “Where’s my hire?” she asked, her smile vanishing.

    The young man motioned at them with his tablet. “Follow me.” 

    She shot Victor a puzzled look as they wove between long, noisy assignment lanes and translucent partition walls. When the coordinator stopped, she nearly stumbled over feet stuffed into thick, scrunched-up socks and rough boots protruding from behind one such partition.

    “Here’s your contract.”

    She edged around the frosted plexiglass to find a large alien reclined there, eyes closed. He was of a humanoid variety, with two arms, two legs, and one head, which offered some relief. She really shouldn’t have asked for “anyone” at the assignment counter. 

    “Why is he sleeping?” Victor’s voice was tight. “Is he alright?”

    The dispatch coordinator prodded the alien’s ribs with his foot. “You alright?” he asked in Universal.

    The lids covering the alien’s eyes moved apart slowly, revealing first a bluish third lid, then enormous orbs as bottomless as two black holes.

    “Get fucked,” the alien said distinctly.  

    Victor flinched, but the dispatch coordinator remained impervious. “How about congratulations? You’re under a contract.”

    The alien blinked, showing that disturbing third lid again. “I’m what?”

    Ignoring the question, the coordinator tapped his screen. “I’ve got a few things to go over before you can assume your new assignment.”

    The alien belched.

    “Callisto,” Victor began, but she shook her head, cutting him off.

    “We’re not coming back empty-handed.”

    “He’s wearing a bedsheet.”

    She shrugged. “I was told he’s a migrant alien.”

    “Great,” Victor drawled. “What will Seth say?”

    The question made Callisto cringe on the inside.

    “I’ve been overwhelmed and he knows it. He’ll be grateful I brought back help. Everything will be alright.” She touched Victor’s arm to reassure him and glanced again at the alien scratching his underarm in a way that made her think about flea treatments.  

    The dispatch coordinator had found his checklist. “First, your contract. You’ve accepted—verbally, implied, or otherwise inferred—a position classified under Universal Labor Allocation Law in the category of Unclassified Assets and Non-verified Migratory Personnel.”

    The alien rocked his head as if it were killing him, dislodging a bird’s nest of greasy, flaxen-colored hair.

    “You’re assigned to Regenerate Science Station as maintenance personnel, with duties including but not limited to waste remediation and sanitation, biohazard neutralization, and incidental mechanical upkeep as directed by your supervisor. Any questions?”

    “Where can I get a joint around here?”

    Victor’s entire body twitched.

    The coordinator turned toward Callisto. “You don’t have to take him, but the recruitment fee is non-refundable.”

    Explaining to Seth why she paid a recruitment fee and came back empty-handed was simply out of the question. 

    She stepped forward.

    “Our station is completely drug-free,” she addressed the reclining body. “It may not be an ideal situation for you, but we provide a private room and full board, plus a small wage. The contract is for six months—you can always go back to your preferred occupation afterward.”

    The alien’s lips puckered as if he was going to blow out a candle. Callisto braced for a rude clap-back, but then his mouth relaxed. A slight thrum ran along her spine like a melodic riff—his sharpened attention.

    “You’re a human female,” he stated.

    “Yes.”

    He cocked his head. “Where’s your hair?”

    She raised her hand to touch the soft fuzz of her shaved head, then dropped it. “I keep it this short for convenience.”

    “Huh,” he said. “You have a boyfriend?”

    Annoyance thinned Callisto’s mouth. “No.”

    “You want one?”

    “I have a husband,” she informed him tightly.

    His solid black, disconcerting eyes didn’t shift, but Callisto thought he might be looking at Victor.

    “Is he it?” He sounded thoroughly unimpressed.

    “This is Victor. He works with my husband.”

    “Will I also work with your husband?”

    “You will report to me,” she said. “My name is Callisto.”

    He didn’t move, and the expression on his brutish, weathered face didn’t change.

    She was ready to admit defeat when the alien pulled his legs up. “Let’s do it.”

    Slowly, he pushed himself off the floor and rose to his full height. She knew he would be tall, but wasn’t prepared for how tall. And broad. The stained, coarse fabric wrapped around his body strained to contain the bulk of him as he towered over even Victor.

    The dispatch coordinator made a final notation on his form and hurried them toward the exit. Despite him leading the way, their progress through the overcrowded floor of the processing center was hampered by their new hire’s drunken sway. He stumbled and listed to one side, then the other, barely keeping pace. With each step they took, Victor’s face darkened a little more, but Callisto couldn’t escape a surreal feeling that they were leading a great mythical beast through the throngs of ordinary people. 

    That feeling shattered when the fantastic beast ran into a sharp corner and erupted in a bout of cursing so vile it created a vacuum of stunned silence around them.

    At the final checkpoint, the coordinator uttered “good luck” in their general direction and beat feet. 

    “Step forward,” a security guard ordered the alien. 

    He did, leaning heavily on the booth’s counter.

    “Don’t lean, bruiser, mind your manners. Birthplace?”

    “Extinct,” the alien growled, ignoring the order not to lean, and hiked up his unwinding sheet. Callisto glimpsed a shoulder and part of a broad ribcage beneath a sleek pelt that was too fine to conceal deep, multicolored bruises. At some not-so-distant point, he had been severely beaten. The knowledge cooled Callisto’s annoyance by a couple of degrees and made her wonder if injuries, rather than intoxication, made him clumsy.

    The guard peered at the alien. “What are you, a Levisur?”

    “Yeah… Yeah, I am.”

    Check.

    “Name?”

    “Ah… Sid.”

    Check.

    “You’re all set. Have a nice day.”

    The little gate swung open.

    The three of them squeezed into an enclosed conveyor that took them to the hangar, where their shuttle waited. Itl, one of their station’s pilots, already had the hatch open.

    “What took you so long?” he asked irritably.

    “There was a line,” Callisto couldn’t keep the fatigue out of her voice. She didn’t have the bandwidth to deal with the temperamental Tarai right now. “But we got lucky this time.”

    “Good. No more wasted trips. Except now we have to spend another hour waiting for clearance. I hate these allocation hubs—traffic control has ten different vectors and they can never agree whose turn it is to go.”

    She didn’t argue. Itl would complain whether she did or not. He was a never-enough kind of guy, and his appearance reflected his philosophy. One piercing was way too subtle for Itl, so he got twenty. One tattoo didn’t stand out sufficiently, so he inked one hundred. His multitude of heavy metal necklaces, bracelets, and spiky patches made him jingle and rattle when he moved. 

    Victor got into the shuttle first, followed by Callisto. When the alien ambled in, Itl’s eyes bugged out.

    “Who in the void is that?”

    “Sid,” Sid said as he slid inside. He never showed any sign of discomfort in his battered body, but the way he folded himself into the rear seat was careful. 

    Itl fixed his pupil-less Tarai eyes on Victor.

    “Don’t look at me.” Victor raised his hands in surrender.

    “Were there any smaller janitors?”

    “Not in our pay range,” Victor said.

    “You two are crazy. He looks fresh from a prison system.”

    Callisto frowned. She had considered that her acquisition might have an unsavory past, but… was he?

    “Never been to prison in my life,” Sid announced from the back. “Why are you picking on me? I’m not asking why you look like a lightning rod of the Universe.”

    While Itl gasped and stuttered, Victor turned toward Sid, wearing his Strict Dad face. “We’re a professional team, Sid. We’ve got rules, but other than that, we respect each other’s personal choices. Okay?”

    “Exactly.” Itl, feeling supported, found his voice. “My hardware—my choice. Now be quiet, everyone, you’re ruining my concentration.”

    Sid didn’t respond. When Callisto turned, she found his eyes closed. He looked sickly gray around the edges, folded neatly if not comfortably into his seat, with the requisite belts buckled. He’d definitely flown before. He knew the drill without being told, reassuring her that he was trainable.

    A second later, a green indicator flashed on the dashboard, and they got clearance. Itl steered them out of the hangar and into space, gunning for their space lab, Regenerate. 

    “Just so you know,” he said quietly to Callisto when they were underway, “I wouldn’t have voted to keep him on the team. He’s a poor fit.”

    “Too bad,” came the voice from the back. “I’m under the contract.”


  • 5-15-2026

    5-15-2026

    Today, I’m here to share a couple of things.

    First, a promotion. How can we live without a self-promotion? Speaking of which, I have a lot to learn about that (and get a different personality too.) I recently read somewhere that a self-publishing author who is serious about their career needs to post on social media daily (!) and produce a book every 30-60 days (!!). Guys, I’m so dead.

    But also, over-saturation? Every time you open an app, I’m there like a Jack-in-the-box? Um, maybe sometimes…

    So here’s the sometimes.

    Seven Oars is now out on Audible for those who prefer to read with their ears. It was narrated by a real person, the same wonderful voice actor who did the other Rix books, not a robocop AI voice. I work with Podium, and they have been great in all their productions, very professional and generally super easy to work with. (I get no compensation for saying that.)

    I started toying around with ideas for the 4th Rix Universe book, but can’t decide if I have balls to write either Thilza or Phex as a main character. Each presents serious challenges that won’t be easy to overcome. There’s a third option, to introduce a completely new character, but seeing as it’s a series, I feel the need to keep continuity. No other spoilers. I haven’t really written anything, but these very different ideas are floating through my mind.

    Finally, Redux. This story has been sucking up all my energy. It’s a good story, but it has a mystery element, and writing mystery is hard. And character development is a thing. And a dual POV.

    When two people are from different worlds and have no common ground, when neither is looking for a relationship, what can their future hold?

    Here is Chapter 1, introducing Ryf.


    Redux - Chapter 1  

    Tuesdays are the days.
    I enter the clinic through the familiar portico. It’s a fancy word for a covered walkway that leads to a glass-and-chrome door. I stop short of opening it and look back at the street from between the thin white columns.
    It’s going to rain.
    I push through the door and let the artificial coolness of the lobby admit me. My footsteps are quiet on the gleaming marble floor.
    The girl at the reception desk beams at me and jabbers about inane things. Weather. Food festival. Her grandmother’s stroke.
    The girl’s name is Sonya. It’s written on a small tag she’s wearing on her chest. I see the first letter shining in bright gold. S. A curvy bastard.
    I am pleased. I can tell all my letters now. But only when they stand out like the first one. The rest of her name is a blur.
    “The doctor is expecting you,” she says. “Would you like me to show you the way?” Her eyes are limpid and hopeful.
    “No, thank you.” I form the words with care as I listen to myself speak. My speech is slow but almost indistinguishable from the native Ratans. Or humans, as they call themselves.
    I’m also human. But not a Ratan. I know Sonya can’t tell.
    I pull out the access card they gave me and flash it at her as I head to the inner door. She sighs. Her eyes follow me until I turn the corner.
    Waiting for the elevator, I allow myself to smile. She is so young. She has hopes. Her dreams are still untroubled.
    Seventh floor. First turn to the right. Second turn to the right. The last door before the emergency stairs.
    I pause. There’s a plaque next to the door. I try to make out the letters. M. The one with too many sticks. Something precedes it and something follows it. I concentrate and find a D.
    Two letters. Not bad.
    I knock and walk in. He is waiting inside the examination room. Dr. Mann.
    A nurse is in the room with him, an older woman. She eyes me fearfully. She knows I’m not a Ratan.
    I’m an Orinac. Just another human.
    But if you ask her, she’d probably say I’m a devolved hominid. A mutant. A beast. Like most Ratans, she’s repulsed by what she fears.
    “How are you doing today, Ryf?” Dr. Mann is friendly. He cares. He cares too much.
    “I’m well. And you?” I respond like he expects me to.
    “Great, great.” He’s pleased.
    I move to the hospital bed set up as a chair for me. I know my routine.
    I slide into the chair and bare my teeth in a smile. Dr. Mann smiles in response. The nurse shrinks back.
    I shouldn’t mess with her. I sigh and look out of the window.
    It’s going to rain.
    They begin their measurements. A small prick on the finger for a quick blood draw. Blood pressure. Heartbeat. Lungs.
    We run through the familiar questions. Sleep pattern. Appetite. Digestion. Check, check, and check. I’m plagued by a slight vertigo in the mornings, and Dr. Mann makes a note of that. We shall wait and see if it goes away with time. Meanwhile, he can offer me drugs to control it.
    I decline. We shall wait and see.
    The fearful nurse inserts an IV. I keep my mouth shut and my teeth hidden. When done, she hurriedly puts the instruments in order and slips out.
    The IV begins its slow transfusion of drugs from a clear bag into my bloodstream. It fills me up and drains my power.
    I look out of the window. It has started to rain. A light refreshing mist.
    A warm, stinging sensation spreads along my arm. I feel no nausea yet, but it will come. And the dreams. The nausea doesn’t bother me, but the dreams do. If only I could turn off the dreams.
    “Do you have regrets, Ryf?”
    I drag my eyes away from the rain. Dr. Mann is still here. He has never asked me this question before. All in all, it’s a pointless question. Yes, he cares too much.
    “No, I don’t.”
    Nausea begins to churn my insides.
    Dr. Mann is no longer smiling. He frowns above his wire-rimmed glasses. “We have resources, Ryf. I encourage you to see a therapist.”
    “A therapist… For regrets?”
    He talks fast. Being sad for long periods is called depression. Regrets can lead to anxiety and hopelessness. The feeling of helplessness can trigger panic attacks and more depression. Do I have headaches?
    “I’m fine.”
    Dr. Mann purses his lips.
    I am fighting to stay lucid. I hate those fucking dreams. “It was my decision.”
    “I know,” he says quietly. “Well, the nurse will be back in an hour.”
    I nod. Nothing new. The drugs are pulling me down.
    He gives me one last look before leaving. In his eyes, I catch the very thing he is worried about—regrets.
    The rain is falling. The window is streaked with water. The world is a blur…
    …I like coffee. Who knew? I like the smell and taste. I even like the texture of the beans and the sounds of the coffee maker as it finishes brewing. Ida thinks I’m funny…
    …I lean my head against the window on the bus as we roll down the street toward Tandeem in the morning. It stinks of cigarette smoke despite the oversized No Smoking sign. Annoying music is playing, and someone is arguing in the back…

    The rain is falling.
    …I hear thunder. My braided hair is wet and heavy, and my leather armor is slick. The mountain jungle is alive with the sounds of wildlife. My brother is silent, but I know he’s near as we hunt…
    …The man is moaning and writhing on the rocky ground. My hands are smeared with his blood. He cries for mercy but I don’t have any. I put my boot on him and push him over the edge. His cries die out as he disappears down the mine shaft…

    The rain is falling.
    …A missile is hurtling toward the mountain from the clouds. I’m calm. We’ve got what we need. It will never reach the ground. I lift my weapon to the sky and open up my senses. The son of a bitch who shot at us thinks his little plane is too high in the sky for Orinac hunter senses to get a bead on him. He’s wrong. A pump of recoil hits my shoulder as I let the rocket loose…
    The rain is falling hard.
    The woman is laughing. Her warm breath caresses the side of my neck. She’s greedy, squeezing hard as I slide in and out of her slick body. Her pretty eyes are searching mine as she gasps in pleasure under me. I know she wants me to stay. I won’t. Soft skin. Soft… Relief rushes me like a hot wave. For a moment, everything stands still. I’m free. From the cravings, the passion, the drive. Free…
    My heart thumps, and I’m awake in the chair. The bag above my head is empty.
    The fucking dreams.
    The nausea is churning. I take a shuddering breath.
    Dr. Mann cares too much. He’s a good doctor. He has regrets.
    I don’t.
    It was my decision.
    I’m free.
  • Seven Oars on KU

    Seven Oars on KU

    Hello, hello.

    As I start to write, I want to say Happy New Year, everyone! —and then I realize January is already gone. How did that happen?? But muh New Year’s resolutions! I have them. I actually love writing them; it gives me such a great feeling of new beginnings. Do you write them? If so, I hope you’re doing great with yours this year! Remember, one step at a time.

    A few things to share (and I apologize in advance for the bulleted list in my blog. I feel like it should be outlawed—bulleted lists don’t belong in romance space.)

    • Seven Oars is now available on Kindle Unlimited. If you’re a subscriber, give it a read! For those of you not part of the Amazon ecosystem, paperbacks will soon be available elsewhere (B&N, Apple Books, KOBO), so please keep an eye out!
    • A Seven Oars audiobook is in the making through Podium Publishing, which will also be available wide (not just Amazon). I’m super excited about that! If you didn’t already know, all the Rix Universe books are available as audiobooks, and I have a contract for Book 4 when it happens. So I guess I’ll have to write it… It won’t happen in 2026 since other projects are calling my name, but the plans are there. To stay true to form, the next book will feature a character from a previous book, but I still can’t decide who deserves the prime time. Slim pickings. 🤔
    • I’m hard at work on my totally unrelated novel called Redux. It’s a working title, but when did I ever change my mind about those? (hint: never). It touches on the same familiar themes I’ve covered in my books before: unlikely pairing, slow-burn, emotional connection, etc, etc. There’s a mystery element in there. It’s melancholic but not dark, I promise. Will post another chapter soon.
  • October Post

    October Post

    I’d like to start this post by saying Thank You to my readers! After the release of Seven Oars, I received so many heart-warming messages that it truly made my day (my month, rather). I like to say I write for myself, but you can’t imagine the motivational difference your comments make.

    A few of you asked whether Seven Oars will be on Kindle Unlimited – not yet. However, it is now available on several other marketplaces, which works especially well for those of you who aren’t on Amazon. Both the ebook and paperback options are available.

    In the spirit of an update: I’m busy working on my next book (there’s always a next book, ya know?). It’s still very much a work in progress – I’ll share a snippet once I have a firmer grasp on the manuscript.

    This one isn’t about Rix, since I’m more than a little tired of them right now and need a break from aliens and space. I had to do a lot of research on modern space stations just to begin grasping the concept because I’m about as close to being an aerospace engineer as a rock is to a diamond. Somewhere in my drawer still lives a crude diagram of Seven Oars, the station, which helped keep me organized through that journey.

    That’s not to say all the cosmic stuff isn’t fascinating. It really is amazing, the very definition of progress. I hope to live long enough to see a manned mission to Mars. So anyway, no new Rix story *just yet.* But do I have ideas? I do have ideas. In line with the series, the new book, when it’s born, will feature a character from the previous book. For continuity.

    Finally, just for fun, I wanted to share with you an alternative cover for Seven Oars that I made all by my very own little self, with a bit of help from AI. Meaning, it’s a totally AI-generated, this-person-does-not-exist type cover. How about that?

    It’s actually scary how you can just make up a face that looks like a real person’s photo, but they don’t exist. This cover is just a rough mock-up since I knew I’d eventually hire a graphic designer, but it was a cool and slightly creepy experience. I have several images with different faces, but I like this one the best.

  • Seven Oars Release Date

    It’s really happening!

    We have a release date — September 4th! Pre-orders are now open on Amazon.

    This is a story about Rosamma, an ordinary woman with extraordinary resilience.

    It was a fun book to write, despite the fact that it ended up on a darker side, so watch out for language, themes of violence and abuse, and general gloom. ☠️

    Rosamma, who was protected and sheltered most of her life and suffers from poor health, is on her way to another planet when she’s captured by space pirates.

    Instead of a new, brighter future, she’s thrown into a derelict, foul space station ruled by rabid aliens who only understand brutal force. So weak and imperfect, she’s not meant to survive this place, and no one’s there to care…

    But someone does.

    Anyway, I hope you enjoy reading this book. The characters are flawed, because there are no angels walking this earth. Or any earth.

  • Seven Oars Cover Reveal

    Seven Oars book cover

    Hello, everyone!

    We have a cover! 🎉

    It’s in keeping with the series, but this time a lively green.

    The book is written and even halfway edited, though I don’t have a specific release date yet. I’ve been putting a lot of time into it over the last few months—wow, that was something. By now, my characters feel like in-laws who’ve overstayed their welcome.

    I can only hope you won’t feel the same reading it!

    Just a word of warning: it’s not a light book. It covers some dark themes, and most of the characters are morally ambiguous. Lots of psychological pressure and emotional angst. I don’t even know why it came out this way, but I guess the premise (space pirates, capture) didn’t lend itself to a breezy romance.

    Lots of things go bump in the night in that rugged, confined space station. Yuck.

    I’ve also been talking to my friend, generative AI, about the specific genre my Rix Universe books fall into. And I’ve come to the conclusion that it… doesn’t know. Romantic space opera? Dark sci-fi romance? Character-driven psychological sci-fi? Or maybe even speculative fiction with gothic undertones? Take your pick.

    It does have a happy ending, so I’m claiming romance. 💚

  • Author Update April 2025

    Today was a good day in that I passed 100K words in my latest book, Seven Oars. I usually average that much in a finished version, which means I’ll need to write another 20–30K so I can cut back on the fluff during editing. While it still feels like the publication date is a ways away, let me tell you — it’s not that far. Hoping to have it all wrapped up neatly by summertime, as long as I keep being a good girl and stay on pace (which, of course, I am — unless I’m distracted by the noxious thistle weeds ruining my backyard zen).

    I’ve already changed the storyline twice, completely scratching the previous versions. Why? It was getting a little too dark. It’s still a grim story, in my opinion, but it had turned downright depressing — and that wasn’t my goal. That’s what I get for dreaming up a romance set on a pirate space station where a group of women is captured and held by a gang of rabid, lawless men. Ahem. That’s the premise. The women aren’t completely alone, but what can one lone defender do against ten pirates? Well, we’ll all find out in the summer. 😉

    Seven Oars Ch 2

    One week turned into two. The tension inside the cabin had become heavy, and even the chill Gro had grown short-tempered.
       “I wish we could go outside,” Mara lamented, and she spoke for everyone. Being confined to this dilapidated building with barely any facilities, always conscious of having to remain invisible and stay quiet, made their waiting game so much harder.
       Rosamma, although used to living life indoors, struggled with idleness. But more than that, she struggled with the constant presence of people around her—day and night. Strangers who were neither family nor friends. Women like Alyesha who looked right through her. Or women like Mara who shied away from looking at her at all because she was so odd in appearance. She, who had so often decried her loneliness and had looked forward to meeting new friends and building new connections, had found this sojourn with fellow females disagreeable.
       “I will take out the trash,” Fawn volunteered. Alyesha looked up from her mirror. She spent hours on her beauty routine, and not just out of nothing better to do. It was a full-time occupation.
       “No need for you to go. Someone else can take a turn.”
       Fawn almost bowed down to Alyesha’s authority but rallied herself. “Who wants to deal with the trash? But it’s no bother for me.”
       “You take forever to get back. What takes you so long, anyway?”
       “She smokes cigarettes,” Gro informed the room from her bed without breaking her contemplation of the stained ceiling. “And ogles the guards in the spaceship depot’s lookout tower.”
       “I do not!” Fawn’s face filled with color.
       Eze rose to her feet, alarmed. “You can see a lookout tower from here?”
       “Not from here,” Fawn denied hotly. “You have to walk a bit…” She cut herself off abruptly, realizing what she’d revealed, and fell into a sulky silence.
       “Stupid twat,” Alyesha said with feeling.
       Fawn’s chin went up defensively. “Why are you always so rude?”
       “You can’t stay outside!” Mara piped in. “What if someone sees you?”
       “If you can see the lookout tower, the guards can see you,” Anske stated the obvious.
       “It’s wooded as heck. What can they see?” Abruptly, Fawn had had enough. Her round face became pinched and angry. “Yo, bitches, how about y’all back off? You’re not my keepers.”
       Sassa shook her head with stoic vehemence. “You put our trip in danger! Yes, we’re your keepers. We’re all each other’s keepers. If you don’t like it, then you’re out.”
       Fawn sputtered. More angry shouts erupted. Someone tried to shush the argument. Daphne stuck her face into her mother’s armpit and wailed.
       Rosamma became lightheaded. It happened sometimes when she got agitated and her heart rate picked up, requiring a boost of energy to stabilize her system. She always ran low on energy that should flow through her in abundance. Alas, her imperfect Tana-Tana part, the part she shared with Ren instead of owning it whole, refused to do what it was supposed to do. Some space traveler she was.
       The door to their cabin opened silently. The argument went on, and amidst its heated intensity, the other women hadn’t immediately noticed it.
       He stepped inside first, bending to clear the door. Well over six feet tall, maybe even over six and a half, a strapping Rix alien. His otherworldly features were austere and uncompromising. They transfixed Rosamma. She thought he might be handsome. He was too alien for her to appreciate his appearance in the few seconds that stretched impossibly long.
       Two more followed, also tall and fit and armed, dressed in similar dark-blue shimmering bodysuits. They lined up next to the door, silent as statues, and absorbed the cabin’s interior - and the argument that was threatening to descend into a catfight - with their large black eyes that showed no whites. Like built-in opaque glasses - information flowed in, but no emotion got out.
       The shouting inside the cabin slowly quieted down. All the women turned to stare at the newcomers.
       “Who here is waiting for a flight to Priss?” the First One, the leader, asked the room in a broken Universal language.
       No one answered, shocked into complete silence.
       Finally, Rosamma raised her hand. “All of us. We’re all going to Priss.” Cursing her weakness, she pushed against the mattress and rose to her feet.
       Folding her hands in front of her, she bowed her head slightly. “What you ask, may you receive. What you seek, may you find,” she said to the Rix in Universal. It was a formal greeting signifying friendship and goodwill. Her voice came out strained and thin, and she had never hated showing her weakness more than now. In front of all of them, but particularly him.
       She made hand gestures as was custom, performing the greeting ritual. “Here, the light shines upon you and peace awaits you. We’re with you, by your side, always.”
       “Yo, what are you doing?” Fawn whispered loudly. Someone hissed at her to shut up.
       The Rix were not impressed. Or maybe they were. Nothing showed on their stony faces.
       The First One spoke rapidly to his men in his native tongue. Rosamma strained her ears but only understood a word or two. She had made an effort to learn some Rix when Lyle had stayed with them, but it wasn’t much.
       “Get your things. We’re leaving now,” the First One addressed the women in Universal.
       There was a collective gasp. His simple order was easy to understand even by those like Fawn who knew very little Universal, an artificial language made up to facilitate intergalactic relations.
       Rosamma blinked at the First One. “Leaving? Now?”
       His finely traced eyebrows twitched. Yes, he was very handsome. He was also very annoyed. “Do you understand when I speak, female?”
       A realization slammed into her, and she thought she might faint. Something had happened. This was a major change of plans.
       “Who are you?” she half-wailed, half-whispered. “Where’s Lyle? Where’s Ren?”
       The Rix men shifted impatiently on their feet.
       “We came to your planet with Commander Aeshac because of Lyle, the former pirate,” the First One explained in a clipped tone. “My new orders are to take the ship Lyle had prepared and fly you to Priss. The Commander and the rest of the crew will meet us there. Let’s go.”
       A stunned silence hung in the room.
       Then Alyesha darted to her corner and started throwing things into her bag, shoving her beloved cosmetics into a bulging case. “I don’t know about y’all, but I’m going.”
       Mara wrung her hands. “We don’t know who they are!”
       “I don’t care who they are. I’m going to Priss.” Alyesha kept packing in determined, efficient motions.
       Gro and Eze followed Alyesha’s lead, haphazardly gathering their belongings.
       Anske, face flushed, ran around the room. “My things! How can I remember everything?”
       Fawn huffed and puffed, pulling a massive suitcase from under her bed.
       Daphne cried. “They are so ugly, mama. Why are they so ugly?”
       “Hush! Oh, be quiet, child.”
       The Rix males stood still, observing the circus that erupted with inscrutable eyes. It was impossible to say where their uniformly black eyes were trained at any given time.
       Fawn twisted her head to look at Rosamma. “How much time do we have? Ask them!”
       Before Rosamma could reply, Alyesha, recovered from shock, took charge. “How much time do we have to pack, gentlemen?” she enunciated in precise, if slow, Universal. Her eyes were assessing them, but her face remained blank, hiding her thoughts.
       “You don’t have any time,” came a cold reply.
       Alyesha got the message. She zipped up her bag and spared no glance at the things still scattered on her bed.
       Moving as if in a dream, Rosamma pulled her small duffel from underneath her cot, wrapped her shawl around her shoulders, and picked up her unfinished book. That summed up her life accurately. Her lips twisted in irony.
       “Snacks!” Mara worried. “Will there be water? I can’t concentrate.”
       “The ship’s been stocked. We went over all of that a dozen times with Lyle and Ren,” Alyesha said irritably.
       They all lined up in front of the door.
       Rosamma glanced back at the messy room. It was nothing, just a temporary place, an old ramshackle cabin with uncomfortable beds. Yet it suddenly felt so safe and beckoning.
       Tears prickled her eyes. Oh, how she wished…
       She pulled the shawl tighter around herself. Ren needed her. And starting a new life was not bad just because it was scary. His words. She’d live by them.
       The amount of luggage accumulated on the floor was surprisingly large.
       The Rix leader raised a broad six-fingered fist and stuck out one finger. “One bag each. Do you understand?”
       Anske squeaked and fell silent. The rest only nodded.
       The leader tilted his head, and the other two Rix moved with astonishing speed. Rosamma felt their hands on her, patting her in every place, impersonal, before moving on to the others.
       “What the fuck!” Gro and Alyesha exclaimed in unison.
       Four stun guns, three knives, and several pepper sprays were confiscated in a matter of seconds. Eze grumbled. Alyesha maintained a stoic silence. Anske looked forlorn.
       Rosamma was floored. She was an invalid who had lived her life out of her room, ensconced in a comfy chair. Weapons? She’d never needed them. She had no idea how to use any.
       But the women had come to this venture prepared to rely on themselves.
       And she’d brought a book with her.
       She gazed at the Rix leader with his wide shoulders and an easy grip on a matte-black sophisticated weapon. What a crushing contrast. What he must think of her, who stood out as a helpless dummy even among her own womenfolk.
       Finally, they went.
       The three Rix operated like a well-oiled machine, herding them like sheep. On their way, they had to cross a densely wooded area where tall grass snagged at their feet and where they had to crawl over fallen trees while hauling their luggage.
       Daphne continued crying and dropping her bag, causing Mara to stop and help her, slowing their procession. There were angry looks directed at the mother-daughter duo from Alyesha and Gro, but no words were exchanged—stealth was key.
       Anske ended up dragging her bag on the ground, so heavy she could barely lift it. Eventually, it got snagged by a gnarly root. No matter how hard she pulled at it, the bag remained lodged.
       “Hey, young men! Some help… would be… appreciated!” Anske strained and pulled at the bag.
       “Shut up,” Alyesha hissed through clenched teeth.
       “They can’t understand you, Anske,” Mara whispered loudly.
       Language barrier or not, one of the Rix was already upon Anske. He loomed over the older, smaller woman and glowered without changing his neutral expression. He reached out, and for one breathless moment, Rosamma was afraid he’d…
       Blood drained from her head.
       He merely unzipped Anske’s bag and unceremoniously dumped half of its contents out before yanking it free from the roots and handing it to her.
       “Oh. Oh, no!” Anske moaned.
       The procession moved on at a faster clip.
       Rosamma trudged at the end of the line, her bag getting heavier with each step. Physically unfit, she was sweating from exertion and pressing her lips together, afraid that her heavy breathing would draw any sort of attention.
       She felt more and more like a fish out of water. Their situation, these alien men—all of it was dangerous, hard, unforgiving. It required strength of both character and body that she never dreamed of possessing.
       I’m always a burden.
       But she chugged along, clutching her bag, terrified that if she fell, they’d simply leave her behind. She couldn’t fail Ren. It was his only chance to leave.
       A section of the spaceship depot’s fence had been conveniently compromised, probably by Lyle or possibly by Ren. They slipped in between two ragged edges and got inside the perimeter.
       There were spaceships of all possible shapes and sizes. The place smelled of fuel and static electricity—a hair-raising combination. Or maybe it was Rosamma’s senses shorting from the realization that her time on Meeus was coming to a close.
       The ship they came up to sat among other space vehicles that appeared to be in disrepair. This whole corner of the spaceship depot looked abandoned. Grass sprouted in the cracks of the concrete pavement.
    Suddenly, the hatch lowered without a sound, revealing another tall, strapping Rix in the opening.
       “Get in,” the leader ordered the women.
       Rosamma swallowed, but it didn’t improve the loud ringing in her ears. Almost there. Ren and Paloma would be waiting inside. The thought boosted Rosamma’s spirits, if not her strength.
       Alyesha climbed aboard first, her stylish combat boots hitting the metal plank with a determined clomp. It galvanized the rest. One by one, they surmounted the high ledge of the hatch and disappeared inside under the cold, watchful eyes of their Rix shepherds.
       Rosamma slung her bag onto the ledge, but her shawl slipped to her feet and tripped her. She went down like a rag doll. A rock bit into her hip.
       But she didn’t make a sound, even if tears of humiliation and helplessness burned her eyelids. Her ears continued to ring, because her energy—her Tana-Tana’s lifeline—stubbornly refused to flow like it should, failing her imperfect system.
       Out of the corner of her eye, she saw a pair of large boots approach. Large hands reached for her, picked her up, and flipped her body over. Her weight meant nothing to the leader as he hopped onto the ledge with Rosamma in his arms.
       She stiffened, not from fear but from sheer amazement. He was so strong. She was surrounded by pure, unadulterated strength, and it packed a hot punch. So much male physical power next to her body created a different kind of buzz in her head. It was like touching the sun.
       Before Rosamma could savor the sensations, he set her down. Someone brought in her bag. The hatch closed.
       The leader shouted for them to hold on, and the ship shuddered, pulling away from the cracked concrete. The motion threw them around, and the women grabbed any bolted-down part they could reach. There were no seats and no belts to buckle.
       There were no Ren or Paloma.
       “Where’s my brother?” Rosamma’s voice broke as panic rose. “Wait! We can’t leave without Ren. Where is he?”
       Her only answer was the din of the accelerating engines.
       Holding on to the wall, Rosamma made her way to the area where the controls were and where the Rix congregated.
       “Hello!” She didn’t know their names. “Stop!”
       The leader deigned to turn to her. His eyes were opaque. His handsome face was remote and a little cruel, like an ancient, malevolent god.
       “My brother, Ren!” Frantic now, Rosamma repeated her choppy message in Universal and in Rix, the best she could.
       That elicited a reaction. “You speak our language?”
       “Yes. No. A few words,” she switched back to Universal. “My brother…”
       “I heard you,” he cut her off. “He went with Commander Aeshac.”
       Rosamma fell against the wall as if he punched her. “He already left?”
       “Yes.”
       Ren and she couldn’t be separated. They needed each other to complete their energy exchange. Ren wouldn’t go alone!
       The floor seemed to drop beneath Rosamma’s feet. Or maybe it was the ship lurching.
       “Why?”
       “Because it was what Commander Aeshac decided he should do,” the Rix’s tone was cuttingly short. “Now, go back and sit on the floor, human woman. And hold on.” 

  • Working Title “Seven Oars” Ch. 1

    I don’t think I’ve posted anything from my current work in progress, Rix Universe Book 3. I call it Seven Oars but the title may change. It’s Rosamma’s story, and I am kind of aware that at first blush, Rosamma doesn’t check out as a typical romance heroine. Then again, who does? Spoiler alert: Her love interest is also unconventional. 🙂

    I am sitting here writing my blog with a “Simmering Spices” candle lit, with pretty fall decorations all around me. It’s still hot but fall is definitely in the air. And it’s so sunny and peaceful here in the West, as opposed to my beautiful Florida Panhandle that’s about to be washed and blown off the map by hurricane Helene. I don’t have family in the region anymore, but plenty of friends. Prayers to all who are sheltering in place! Watch out for those trees and stock up on water. It’s going to get serious in a few hours.

    To while the time away, here’s the first chapter of Seven Oars. This story starts right before Sky Song ends. It helps if you read the other books for some context, but it isn’t necessary and can be read as a standalone.

    Their quick evening meal was finished. 
    One by one, the women dropped used paper plates into a bag Fawn held open. Rosamma carefully put hers in the bag, too. It was Fawn’s turn to take out the trash.
    Rosamma followed her with her eyes as the girl left the cabin to dispose of the bag, humming a song. Fawn was the most approachable of the group, with a hearty, ready laugh. She was the kind of person who never met a stranger in her life.
    Feeling awkward and decidedly un-Fawn-like, Rosamma settled on her cot and picked up a book, pulling her soft shawl tight around her shoulders for comfort rather than warmth. She wanted to finish the book before they left Meeus. Ren said they couldn't take a lot of things with them.
    Things. The women in Rosamma’s party worried about leaving things behind. They talked about them and lamented their loss to one another, shaking their heads and wiping an occasional tear. One woman, Anske, owned a house, and she liked to talk about it. She described in detail the meticulous arrangements she’d made for the upkeep of the house in her absence. She repeated them over and over again, as if to reassure herself that everything would be alright. Of all of them, only Anske planned to return to Meeus.
    Rosamma’s heart gave a treacherous squeeze. This beautiful planet, Meeus, was their home. It wasn’t a bad one! And if it was, Rosamma couldn't tell, because there was nothing she could compare it to. She liked her home and had never sought a different life.
    But Ren had.
    Instead of reading, Rosamma stared into space. Her fingers went to play with the end of her long thin braid, a childish habit she’d never been able to break.
    The other women quietly went about their evening rituals. There had been fifteen at the start, but only eight remained committed. It was easy to change one’s mind when things didn’t go according to the plan. She wished she could say, like those who had dropped out, that the uncertainty had become too great and she was no longer comfortable taking the risk.
    But she couldn’t say that. She was a firm part of this would-be passenger group waiting to board a spaceship that would take them from Meeus to a livable asteroid called Priss.
    Unable to concentrate on her book, Rosamma cast her eyes about the large room criss-crossed with camp beds. Uneasiness washed over her anew. The women waited on pins and needles for Ren’s new alien friend Lyle to take them away from here. This was all they wanted.
    But Lyle, their pilot, was so sick…
    Fawn’s hearty laughter sounded from outside the door.
    “What part of being quiet doesn’t she understand?” Alyesha’s deep, low voice said from the shadowed corner where her bed sat. It was the most private and, therefore, the most coveted corner. When they’d first arrived at this place, several women had engaged in a subtle jostling to claim it, and Alyesha had won. Alyesha often won.
    Old Gro grumbled something that sounded like dimwit, never straightening from her hunch as she played a game on a small screen.
    “Fawn is so energetic. It’s hard for young people to stay cooped up for a long time,” Mara said in her typical Mara-the-peacemaker way.
    The door opened to let Fawn in, hair windblown, a big smile on her face.
    “Rosamma!” she hollered. “Your brother’s here.”
    “Don’t shout,” Alyesha snapped.
    Making a mockery of Alyesha’s words, a long hoot of a siren announced a spaceship's departure. The throaty revving of powerful engines rattled the windows, becoming louder and turning into a roar. It continued for a good five minutes until the ship took off. Then the sound faded away quickly, replaced by the silence that seemed especially deep after this assault on their eardrums.
    “Yeah. Don’t shout,” Anske said into the silence, parroting Alyesha’s words with sarcasm.
    Alyesha flopped onto her camp mattress. “You know what I mean! When they are not flying.”
    The ships took off from the nearby spaceship depot multiple times per day. Most were quieter, but once in a while, a beast like that would wake them in the middle of the night. When that happened, Rosamma couldn’t help but imagine herself going into space surrounded by all this mighty power that was at the same time… fragile.
    “He told us to stay quiet,” Alyesha pointed at Ren who poked his head in the door.
    “I did tell you that,” Ren confirmed. “Voices carry. It’s supposed to be an uninhabited zone.”
    The women were camped out in an empty building that used to be a convention room of an old training camp. The camp had long been closed, and the area around it designated as a buffer zone between the densely populated Shadush city-continent and its spaceship depot.
    They squatted in this neglected, musty building because Ren wanted them to be as close to the spaceship depot as possible without actually being inside its heavily guarded perimeter. Within the perimeter, there was a small ship Lyle was going to commandeer with Ren’s help. When the time came for them to go, seconds would count.
    Ren came all the way inside, a tall man, on the lean side no matter how much he ate. The sight of him was so familiar and dear to Rosamma. He was as much a part of her as she was a part of him.
    He came alone.
    “Where’s Paloma?” Rosamma asked after Ren’s girlfriend, co-conspirator, and often the driving force behind wild ideas such as this, to space-immigrate from Meeus illegally.
    “Home. She’s still working out the kinks in the security breach. No room for mistakes and all that.”
    “God forbid,” mumbled Gro.
    All the women had tuned in and were listening to Ren’s every word.
    “Don’t worry,” he grinned, addressing the room at large. “Paloma doesn’t make mistakes. My baby’s good like that.”
    Someone chuckled, and Rosamma also smiled, but inside she felt a little perturbed. She loved Paloma. She was happy for Ren. She only wished Paloma wasn’t the imaginative and intrepid hacker who poked her nose into business that could end very badly for her and Ren. Even the most meticulously laid-out plans could go awry.
    “How are you doing, Rose?” Ren sat next to her on the spindly foldable bed that wobbled precariously. Their hands found each other and linked up.
    “Not bad at all. Ready and set to become a space tourist.”
    He smiled her own smile back at her.
    Except for their smile and similar light-colored eyes, they looked nothing like a brother and sister, much less twins.
    Ren was a normal-looking human male.
    And she was a freak. A half-formed version of a human. Or an unfinished Tana-Tana alien. She was both and neither, like she had been caught in the middle of some unfortunate full-moon transition between the two races. That was on the outside.
    On the inside, their situations were reversed. She, Rosamma, had all the physicality and characteristics of an average human woman, whereas Ren tended strongly toward the Tana-Tana alien nature. He even moved like a Tana-Tana when he wanted, fast and stealthy, specter-like.
    Their linked hands warmed up and created a small bubble of energy felt only by the two of them.
    “How is Lyle?” Rosamma asked. She kept her voice very low so that the rest of the room couldn’t hear her.
    “Not as well as we want him to be.”
    Ren didn’t say anything more, and that only meant there was no good news. Their capable Rix pilot, Lyle, was dying.
    Rosamma’s heart broke for him. Despite his checkered piratical past, Lyle was such a good man. Alien. A really solid one. He loved and was loved in return. He didn’t deserve to die now.
    “Do you think I can…”
    “No. You can’t, Rose. He needs more than your energy.”
    Rosamma lowered her eyes to their clasped hands.
    “What is going to happen to all of… this?” she whispered. As far as she knew, Ren and Paloma didn’t have another friendly space pilot with Lyle’s particular expertise in stealing ships who would fly them away and do it for free.
    When Ren responded, he chose his words with care. “We shall wait for him to recover. Cricket has faith, and so should we.”
    Rosamma nodded. It must be brutal for Cricket, Lyle’s love, to watch her entire world crash and burn, and feel her very heart being ripped out of her chest because her mate was dying. If Lyle did die, nothing but a string of bleak gray days without joy would stretch before Cricket for the rest of her life.
    Suddenly, Rosamma’s own loneliness had an upside. She was safe from the pain of a debilitating heartbreak. One couldn’t lose what one didn’t have, could they?
    After they finished their energy exchange and unlinked their hands, Ren hung around for a short while and talked to the women, explaining the need to prolong their waiting game. They accepted the message with outward calm, but it was easy to sense everyone’s disappointment.
    “We’ve been waiting for three weeks,” Alyesha spoke after Ren left. “And he wants to wait longer?” She looked directly at Rosamma, as if trying to pry a different answer out of her when Ren wouldn’t say what they wanted.
    “He said another week,” Rosamma said quietly. It could be two weeks. It could be forever.
    Gro lay down and put her hands under her head, a toothpick stuck in her mouth. “Fine by me. Let’s wait another week.” Her feet in worn-out shoes were wiggling.
    Alyesha tossed her long hair and her dark eyes flashed. “Not everyone has time to lose, Gro.”
    Other women were intimidated by the opinionated Alyesha because she steamrolled over everyone else with such ease.
    Not Gro. “What’s your rush, girl?”
    Alyesha was younger than Gro, but she wasn’t young. Her impeccable, possibly genetically enhanced appearance projected timelessness that could put her anywhere between thirty and fifty-five. Whatever her real age, she didn’t care for being called a “girl.”
    She gave Gro a killing look, but instead of arguing, smiled tightly. “Someone’s very eager for me to finally come to Priss.”
    Gro scoffed. “If they’re so eager for you, they can wait another week. I don’t see what the problem is.”
    Before an argument could ensue, Eze pulled out a snack and ripped the packaging noisily.
    Eze was a Sakka alien, the only non-human in their party. Rosamma didn’t know what Eze was doing on human Meeus or how long she’d lived here or why she could’t leave through legal channels. Just like she knew nothing about any of the others. None of them had shared their stories. What Alyesha had just revealed about someone waiting for her on the asteroid was the most Rosamma had ever learned about her.
    Mara worried her lip. “Do you think we won’t be able to go, after all?”
    “We’ll find a way.” Anske’s blue, slightly protruding eyes, blazed with determination, saving Rosamma from hedging and spouting platitudes. “I can’t fail. I have a higher purpose!”
    That made Gro raise her head and Eze stop chewing.
    “The delay is a holy test,” Anske continued, unaware of the heightened attention from the Gro and Eze quarters. “We should all use this time to reflect on our life and seek repentance.”
    Mara’s daughter Daphne darted across the room and hid at her mother’s side. Daphne was a younger version of the pretty, round-faced Mara only very skinny and pale. In her late teens, she acted like a much younger child and had a vocabulary of a five year-old.
    “I’ll be damned.” Gro half-rose from her bed and stared at Anske. “You’re a fucking missionary!”
    “Gro!” Mara slapped her hands over Daphne’s ears to prevent her from hearing the profanity.
    Alyesha laughed.
    Fawn divided a wide look between Anske and Gro. “Bro! A missionary. For real?”
    Anske blinked, realizing she’d become the center of attention. “So what if I am? People on that asteroid have no roots. They need spiritual healing, and someone has to deliver it. By appealing to other people’s faltering morals, we build our own character. Don’t you agree, Fawn?”
    Anske’s direct appeal to her morality and character took Fawn aback. She looked around wildly. “Oh, I don’t know, Anske. I just want to get away from here, to see the world. Maybe to find a man.” She twirled a strand of hair around her finger.
    “No luck with men at home?” Alyesha curled her lip at Fawn while giving the younger woman’s nice, plump figure a thorough once-over.
    Fawn was not unaware of Alyesha’s superior attitude, but she wasn’t upset by it. “Not that. I’m from Pepper Pass. Nothing but corn fields and cow pastures. All the men are farmers - so boring.”
    “Boring!” Sassa, a young but tired-looking, small-statued woman who was as quiet as a mouse, said under her breath. “A good problem to have, boring men.”
    Eze, the Sakka, set aside her unfinished snack. “Well,” she addressed Fawn, “you definitely won’t find cow manure or corn husks on Priss.”
    “I’m ready for an adventure.”
    “You’ll get an adventure,” Eze promised. “Just be careful what you wish for.”
    Fawn's eyes sparkled with excitement. “I wish to find interesting men.”
    “Sure. Only they’re no human men, love.”
    Sassa burrowed deeper into her little cot.
    Another spaceship took off from the nearby spaceship depot, howling like a disturbed demon and rattling the windows.
    Using the noise as an excuse to end the discussion that had suddenly turned personal, the women returned to their narrow camp beds. Once again, they had closed off, united in their determination to keep their distance.
    Long after all the noise had ceased and the darkness fallen, Rosamma stayed awake on her bed, wrapped in a shawl. The women were so different from each other. So different from her. Temporarily, their life paths had joined together, and their futures lay ahead, dark and swirling ominously with the unknown.
    Treacherous thoughts about staying meandered in Rosamma’s head. She and Ren were forever linked together by their half-breed nature and the need to exchange energy to survive. If only they could exist apart from each other…
    Once they took off, Rosamma was going to lose every familiar sight and smell, every little comfort that surrounded her on Meeus.
    The terraformed Priss was a miserable place, lawless and rough, a kind of a last frontier. It had thin recycled air and poorly purified imported water, both rationed out for the residents. And most residents weren’t even human.
    Funny that Rosamma should worry about aliens, herself a mixed-race. Yet the prospect of living among them scared her. She was so very human - by half of her blood, but also by virtue of her upbringing. Humans and their culture was all Rosamma had ever known. It was familiar. It was home.
    Breaking away from it all was terrifying.
    Tears leaked out of her eyes. She curled into a fetal position on the cot as she covertly blotted them with her shawl.
    Do I have to go?
    She was so afraid to fly into space. Afraid of so many things. Timid and frail, she was the worst ever character for an adventure.
    But if she stayed behind, Ren would stay, too. And Rosamma couldn’t refuse her brother a fighting chance for a better life with the woman he loved.
    It was hard to live other people’s dreams.

  • Romance Novels in the Rockies: A Writer’s Inspiration

    Hello, dear readers!

    I hope this post finds you well and cozy wherever you are. As some of you might know, I recently made a big move from the bustling streets of Washington, DC to the breathtaking landscapes of Colorado. It’s been quite the adventure, and I’m excited to share a bit of this new chapter with you!

    Leaving behind the historic charm and vibrant energy of DC has been a bittersweet experience. But as I settle into my new home amidst the majestic Rocky Mountains, I can’t help but feel a wave of fresh inspiration. The crisp mountain air, the endless blue skies, and the serene natural beauty are already weaving their way into my writing.

    The Writing Journey

    As I transition into this new environment, I’m also deep in the midst of crafting two romance novels. It’s been a slow and steady process, but each day I’m finding new pieces of inspiration in my surroundings. Whether it’s a serene sunrise over the mountains or a quiet moment with a good cup of coffee, these experiences are subtly influencing my stories.

    In one of my novels, I’m exploring a romance that unfolds in a small, charming town—something that feels a little more real now that I’m living in a place that resembles that setting. The local color and community vibes are providing a rich backdrop for the characters’ journey.

    For those who are curious, here’s a little sneak peek into one of my current projects: a romance that delves into the complexities of finding love in unexpected places. As my characters navigate their own paths, I’m excited to see how the unique elements of Colorado might influence their journey. Expect moments of stunning natural beauty, heartfelt connections, and of course, a touch of romance that will hopefully leave you yearning for more.

    I’m incredibly grateful for your continued support and patience as I work through this transitional period. Your encouragement means the world to me, and I can’t wait to share more of my work with you. Here’s to new beginnings, fresh inspirations, and the never-ending magic of storytelling!

    Stay tuned for more updates!

    Warmest wishes.

  • Fall Post

    Hello, world. This is me, Lydia, trying to revive my neglected online presence. Fall is here and I have pretty pictures to show for it. I’ll never get tired of fall colors. After 18 years in Florida, it’s hard to believe I’m back in a place where there’re seasons. I love seasons. (I love Florida, too.)

    I get asked about what I’m working on, and I’m happy to share that I’m slowly but surely making progress on Rix Universe Book 3, Rosamma’s story. It will be the last in the series. Never say never, of course, but there are other stories waiting to be told and other worlds worth exploring. I plan to continue playing with the same familiar themes of loneliness, belonging, inner strength vs. physical power, finding purpose, and, of course, love that shines bright in the darkness. And there will be a lot of darkness in Rosamma’s story before there is light. We’re a bit anti-hero-ish. I will be posting snippets soon so you all can get a sense of what it’s shaping up to be.

    Along with Rosamma’s book, I’m working on my still-untitled little novel that takes place in a fictional world that resembles ours, but where humans come in genetically different species. I am having a lot of fun writing it. I’m trying to keep the story simple, but I can’t, and it veers a bit toward mystery. The heroine, Merah, is a widow. Her husband’s legacy is secrets that start sprouting up. There’s a large house she dislikes, all very gothic. Preoccupied and distraught, she meets and finds comfort in the most unlikely man she can imagine. He’s a friend she so badly needs… at first.

    In this book, I’m doing two things that are new to me. One, it’s written from the first person, which I always said I hated. And two, it’s written from the dual point of view, which is super challenging when it comes to expressing the hero’s thoughts. But some stories simply lend themselves better to a certain format, and I think this one is exactly like that.

    I’ve already posted a piece from the middle of the story, and here’s the beginning. Here we are.

    Untitled - Chapter 1 (draft)
    
    Tuesdays are the days.
    
    I enter the clinic through the familiar portico. It’s a fancy word for a covered walkway leading up to a glass-and-chrome door. I stop short of opening it and look back at the street through the thin white columns. 
    
    It’s going to rain.
    
    I push through the door and let the artificial coolness of the lobby admit me. My footsteps are quiet on the gleaming marble floor. 
    
    The girl at the reception desk beams at me and jabbers some inane stuff. Weather. Food festival. Her grandmother is coming to live with them after the stroke. 
    
    The girl’s name is Sonya. It’s written on a small tag she’s wearing on her chest. I see the first letter shining in bright gold. S. A curvy bastard. 
    
    I am pleased.
    
    I can tell all my letters now. But only when they stand out like the first one. The rest of her name is a blur. 
    
    “The doctor is expecting you,” she says. “Would you like me to show you the way?” Her eyes are limpid and hopeful.
    
    “No, thank you.” I form the words with care as I listen to myself speak. My speech is slow but almost indistinguishable from the native Ratans. Or humans, as they call themselves. 
    
    I’m also human. But not a Ratan. I wonder if Sonya can tell.
    
    I pull out the access card they gave me and flash it at her as I head to the inner door. Her face falls, and she sighs. Her eyes follow me until the door closes.
    
    Waiting for the elevator, I allow myself to smile. She is so young. She’s filled to the brim with hopes and dreams. Why can’t we stay that fresh forever?
    
    Seventh floor. First turn to the right. Second turn to the right. The last door before the emergency stairs. 
    
    I pause. There’s a plaque next to the door. I try to make out the letters. M. The one with too many sticks. Something precedes it and something follows it. I concentrate and find a D. 
    
    Two letters. Not bad. 
    
    I knock and walk in. 
    
    He is waiting inside the examination room. Dr. Mann.
    
    A nurse is in the room with him, an older woman. She eyes me fearfully. She knows I’m not a Ratan. 
    
    I’m an Orinac. Just another human. 
    
    But if you ask her, she’d probably say I’m devolved. A mutant. A beast. 
    
    Like most Ratans, she’s repulsed by what she fears.
    
    “How are you doing today, Ryf?” Dr. Mann is friendly. He cares. 
    
    He cares too much.
    
    “I’m well. And you?” I respond like he expects me to. 
    
    “Great, great.” He's pleased.
    
    I move to the hospital bed that’s configured into a large chair for me. I know my routine.
    
    I slide into the chair and bare my teeth in a smile. Dr. Mann smiles back. The nurse pulls away, failing to hide her fear. 
    
    I shouldn’t mess with her. I sigh and look out of the window. 
    
    It’s going to rain.
    
    They begin their measurements. A small prick on the finger for a quick blood draw. Blood pressure. Heartbeat. Lungs. 
    
    We run through the familiar questions. Sleep pattern. Appetite. Digestion. Check, check, and check. I’m plagued by a slight vertigo in the mornings, and Dr. Mann makes a note of that. We shall wait and see if it goes away with time. Meanwhile, he can offer me drugs to control it.
    
    I decline. We shall wait and see.
    
    The fearful nurse inserts an IV. I keep my mouth shut and my teeth hidden.
    
    When done, she hurriedly puts the instruments in order and leaves. 
    
    The IV begins its slow transfusion of drugs from a clear bag into my bloodstream. It fills me up and drains my power. 
    
    I look out of the window. It has started to rain. A light refreshing mist.
    
    A warm stinging sensation spreads along my arm. I feel no nausea yet, but it will come. And the dreams. 
    
    The nausea doesn’t bother me, but the dreams do. If only I could turn off the dreams.
    
    “Do you have regrets, Ryf?”
    
    I pull my eyes away from the rain. Dr. Mann is still here.
    
    He has never asked me this question before. All in all, it’s a pointless question. Yes, he cares too much.
    
    “No, I don’t.” 
    
    Nausea begins to churn my insides.
    
    Dr. Mann is no longer smiling. He frowns above his wire-rimmed glasses. “We have resources, Ryf. I encourage you to see a therapist.”
    
    “A therapist… For regrets?”
    
    He talks fast. Being sad for long periods is called depression. Regrets can lead to anxiety and hopelessness. The feeling of helplessness can trigger panic attacks and more depression. Do I have headaches?
    
    “I’m fine.”  
    
    Dr. Mann purses his lips. 
    
    I am fighting to stay lucid. I hate those fucking dreams. “It was my decision.”
    
    “I know,” he says quietly. “Well, the nurse will be back in an hour.”
    
    I nod. Nothing new.
    
    The drugs are pulling me down.
    
    He gives me one last look before leaving. In his eyes, I catch the very thing he is worried about, regrets.
    
    The rain is falling. The window is streaked with water. The world is a blur…
    
    …I like coffee. Who knew? I like the smell and taste. I even like the texture of the beans and the sounds of the coffee maker as it finishes brewing. Ida thinks I’m funny…
    
    The rain is falling.
    
    …I hear thunder. My braided hair is wet and heavy, and my leather armor is slick. The man is moaning and writhing on the rocky ground. My hands are smeared with his blood. He cries for mercy but I don’t have any. I put my boot on him and push him over the edge. His cries die out as he disappears down the mine shaft…
    
    The rain is falling.
    
    …A missile is hurtling toward the mountain from the clouds. I’m calm. We’ve got what we need. It will never reach the ground. I lift my weapon to the sky and open up my senses. The son of a bitch who shot at us thinks his little plane is too high in the sky for Orinac hunter senses to get a bead on him. He’s wrong. A hard pump of recoil hits my shoulder as I let the rocket loose…
    
    The rain is falling hard. 
    
    …The woman is laughing. Her warm breath caresses the side of my neck. She’s greedy, squeezing hard as I slide in and out of her slick body. Her pretty eyes are searching mine as she gasps in pleasure under me. I know she wants me to stay. I won’t. Pretty eyes… Relief rushes me like a hot wave. For a moment, everything stands still. I’m free. From the darkness, the passion, the drive. Free…
    
    My heart thumps, and I’m awake in the chair. The bag above my head is empty.
    
    The fucking dreams.
    
    The nausea is churning. I take a shuddering breath.
    
    Dr. Mann cares too much. He’s a good doctor. He has regrets.
    
    I don’t.
    
    It was my decision.
    
    I’m free.